Panicked Monday

[princessofburundi]

I woke up late this morning, around 10:30, and I awoke in the middle of the mother of all panic attacks. There were panicked thoughts - this is going to kill me, I'm going to need to be locked up in a mental asylum - lots of gastrointestinal stuff that comes with the fear, weeping, and shaking like a leaf. I haven't had a first thing in the morning panic attack since January and I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed by it.

So I told myself that I could stay in bed until I was ready to get up (it's 12:15 and I'm not yet ready), and I've been doing things that relax me. I've prayed fervently for God's help. I've played a couple of rounds of Lexulous (a Scrabble-based game) with globetrotter1. I've done a couple of jigsaw puzzles on the phone - they are great for helping me clear my mind. I have a cat cuddled up to my leg, and that is a big help. I'm going to watch an episode of Doctor Who. I called my mother, but she couldn't talk as she was in the middle of making a Merlin costume for my 10-year old nephew that needs to be ready for tomorrow.

No more mornings like this one, please. Just no.

Comments

[michigangster]

I'm sorry you have to deal with panic attacks. I have them too and I know they are awful. Lots of hugs.

[princessofburundi]

Thank you so much. I'm so sorry that you get them too. No one should have to deal with them. *hugs you back*

[miss_s_b]

Eurgh.
Especially hateful form of panic attack: the one where you don't know what's triggered it.

* all the sympathies for you *

[princessofburundi]

Thank you!

[fleeting]

:c I'm sorry to hear about the panic attack, and I hope you feel better later.

[princessofburundi]

Thank you!

[dorchadas]

That sounds horrible. I hope the rest of your day is an improvement.

[princessofburundi]

Thank you. Panic attacks really suck and I'm so fed up with them. They come less frequently now - for months I had panic attacks many times a day, but they're still awful. I appreciate the sympathy!

[tielan]

So sorry to hear about these. I hope things get better for you in whatever is left of today!

[princessofburundi]

Thank you!

[coeur_de_noir]

It seems so unfair that these should happen to anyone - I hope you are feeling more centred and relaxed today x

[princessofburundi]

Thank you!

Things are a bit better today. Not great, but improving. Thanks!