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It's only 6 p.m. but I'm just about ready for sleep. If I nap now there will be no sleep tonight, so I'm working hard on staying awake.
Yesterday I went over to a young friend's place. She has a 10-week old baby boy to whom I am an unofficial auntie, and I love that little boy so much. He is so cute and warm and sweet. M. started inviting me over when her little one was three days old; I was really struggling with depression around the time he was born and she thought snuggling her little baby might help me feel better. It did. I go over every week, and I enjoy both her company and cuddling Mr. Adorable. I think the thing that helps me most about it is that M. often goes out while I'm there to have a bit of a break from the baby, and I realize how much she must trust me to leave me with both her young boy and her apartment. That trust gives me a real boost of self-esteem.
Most Fridays I meet my mum for coffee at the local shopping mall; I did so today. I don't go over to her place much as my dad has become such difficult company and it's impossible to have a conversation with my mum when he's around. My dad's an amputee, and although he can do a fair bit for himself he much prefers being waited on, and he's utterly rude to those people who are helping him. Never a word of thanks. My mum likes the opportunity to get away from him, and I get that. It's always nice to meet up with her; I look forward to it.
I think I'm going to try to qualify to teach English as a Second Language. I'm not sure yet, but it does seem like a good idea. I think I am probably too old to teach overseas, but I could teach it locally to immigrants, or I could teach it online; I've noticed a lot of postings for online ESL teaching. It would allow me to support myself, and to feel more independent, plus I think I'd really like the work. I have a BA and an MA in English, so I have a good background for the job. At the same time I think I will brush up on my Spanish speaking - most of it has disappeared - and see if that helps me work with immigrants from Spanish-speaking countries. There are a lot of immigrants in Canada from Central and South America. Anyway, this is just something I'm thinking about, but the more I think about it the more I like the idea.
Yesterday I went over to a young friend's place. She has a 10-week old baby boy to whom I am an unofficial auntie, and I love that little boy so much. He is so cute and warm and sweet. M. started inviting me over when her little one was three days old; I was really struggling with depression around the time he was born and she thought snuggling her little baby might help me feel better. It did. I go over every week, and I enjoy both her company and cuddling Mr. Adorable. I think the thing that helps me most about it is that M. often goes out while I'm there to have a bit of a break from the baby, and I realize how much she must trust me to leave me with both her young boy and her apartment. That trust gives me a real boost of self-esteem.
Most Fridays I meet my mum for coffee at the local shopping mall; I did so today. I don't go over to her place much as my dad has become such difficult company and it's impossible to have a conversation with my mum when he's around. My dad's an amputee, and although he can do a fair bit for himself he much prefers being waited on, and he's utterly rude to those people who are helping him. Never a word of thanks. My mum likes the opportunity to get away from him, and I get that. It's always nice to meet up with her; I look forward to it.
I think I'm going to try to qualify to teach English as a Second Language. I'm not sure yet, but it does seem like a good idea. I think I am probably too old to teach overseas, but I could teach it locally to immigrants, or I could teach it online; I've noticed a lot of postings for online ESL teaching. It would allow me to support myself, and to feel more independent, plus I think I'd really like the work. I have a BA and an MA in English, so I have a good background for the job. At the same time I think I will brush up on my Spanish speaking - most of it has disappeared - and see if that helps me work with immigrants from Spanish-speaking countries. There are a lot of immigrants in Canada from Central and South America. Anyway, this is just something I'm thinking about, but the more I think about it the more I like the idea.
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Date: 2017-04-21 11:31 pm (UTC)Happy weekend!
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Date: 2017-04-22 02:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-04-24 10:09 pm (UTC)I feel too old to teach overseas, but then again I feel too old to wash my dishes, so I think that's all down to depression. The thought of teaching in Asia fills me with trepidation, but there are some jobs in places like Peru and Chile that actually excite me. It would give me a chance to brush up on my Spanish as well as earn a living.
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Date: 2017-04-22 05:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-04-24 10:06 pm (UTC)I agree with you about older adults feeling more comfortable around people of their age group.
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Date: 2017-04-22 11:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-04-24 10:04 pm (UTC)I think lesson plans sound like fun. I used to watch my mum, an elementary school teacher, make lessons plans, and always wished that it were me! But to each his own - I'm more scared about standing in front of a classroom.
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Date: 2017-04-22 04:00 pm (UTC)You're never too old to do something new...
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Date: 2017-04-24 10:22 pm (UTC)I'm a big reader and depression kills my concentration so that I can't read. I haven't picked up a knitting needle or a pencil crayon or anything like that in months, nor have I been to the gym, not since January. And people tell me, "do x and y" and you'll feel better, and they don't seem to understand that it takes more energy than I have to do those things. I'm glad that you understand. It makes me feel less like a failure, and boy, do I feel like a failure most days.
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Date: 2017-04-25 12:24 am (UTC)We're just going through a "rut" that's all. Hopefully, we'll get out of it soon.
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Date: 2017-04-25 01:38 am (UTC)How do you make stationery? I'd like to learn to do that!
Hugs coming your way.
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Date: 2017-04-25 02:02 am (UTC)He says the same thing too, when I get in these moods.