Easter

[princessofburundi]

Happy Easter to those of you who celebrate it!

I have woken up with a mighty case of acid reflux, so BLEAH to that, and I was woken far earlier than I would have liked due to my younger cat deciding that first thing in the morning was a good time for head scratches and for walking up and down my back. I told her to go away and let me sleep, and she pointed out that she doesn't speak English, so she won. She always does. She's so adorable and fluffy that I indulge her every whim.

I'm morose this morning. For me, holidays are a reminder that I'm alone in the world. My parents and brother's family, who share a large home in the country, have not invited me to Easter or Thanksgiving for several years now. My elder daughter hasn't spoken to me in seven or eight years, my son lives far away in Vancouver, and my younger daughter is in the middle of exams and doesn't celebrate anyway, being an atheist. I don't have much in the way of real-life friends, certainly not the sort to open their homes to me on holidays. I look back and wonder how I ever thought that family celebrations were annoying or too much work, you don't realize how precious they are until they're gone. I remember delighted children hunting for Easter eggs, and my mum's lovely ham roasts, and a church family where I worshipped regularly, and I don't know where the years have gone.

Anyway, enough of being depressed. It's a holiday, so I'm going to ignore housework except for dishes, and spend the day reading or watching TV. It's nice and warm today with a delicious breeze, but it's raining on and off, and isn't really the weather for venturing outdoors much, so I shall stay home and enjoy the company of books.

Comments

[nonniemous]

Holidays are hard when you do not fit the "normal" family relationship around which they are built. {{hugs}} And, as someone who left her faith community behind two decades ago, I still miss that community sometimes.

A day at home, snug with cats and books sounds lovely!

[princessofburundi]

Thanks for the hugs. Yes, it is hard sometimes. I miss family get-togethers even though memory tells me that they could also be pretty darned annoying!

The day is turning into a marathon of napping! I keep falling asleep reading!

[globetrotter1]

Happy Easter, sweetie. Enjoy your books and kitties.

[princessofburundi]

Happy Easter to you, too!

I keep falling asleep over my book. The book is good, but I can't keep my eyes open. Easter shall be a day of naps this year.

[innerslytherin]

Happy Easter to you!

I don't actually enjoy large family holiday get-togethers, but I do sort of dread the notion of holidays after my parents are gone. We're extraordinarily close and my preferred way of spending any holiday is just me and the folks (I'm an only). So while I can't relate first-hand, I do have anxiety about that.

And kitties always win, don't they? If only by dint of making themselves louder and more annoying than any alternative. They're so lucky they're cute. :)

[princessofburundi]

I envy you having a really close relationship with your parents. I never have. They're wonderful people, but very stiff-upper lip British, and not affectionate nor given to praise. My dad is slowly caving to dementia (he and my mum are both 86), and my mother's health is iffy, so I don't see them being around much longer, and it's a scary thought. Even though we're not close, they're *there*, you know, at the other end of the telephone line, and I can't imagine otherwise. So I definitely get how you feel.

My younger cat is one of the best things in my life. She is so full of love and lunacy and fluff and I don't know what I'd do without her. I love my other cat, but it's a love-hate relationship - she is difficult, vocal, and standoffish, and there are days when I feel like selling her. I never would, but I sure feel like it sometimes!

[dorchadas]

Happy Easter! I hope you enjoyed your books (or your naps, having checked the other comments).

It's interesting reading to me about other people's family celebrations, because my family is pretty small and even among our small family, most celebrations were only my parents, my sister, and myself, so they weren't much different than another day. I'm sorry that this Easter is somewhat of a source of sadness for you.

[princessofburundi]

Thank you.

[coeur_de_noir]

It's really hard to be distant from your family during times when the whole idea of family is heavily marketed. I hope you had a nice day x

[princessofburundi]

Thank you. It wasn't too bad. I watched a lot of Netflix, read my book, had a nap. Would have rather been with family, but it wasn't to be, so I accepted it and moved on.