Apr. 19th, 2017 02:38 pm
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I just went to a therapist's appointment at the hospital for the first time. Holy crap, it was hard. Talking about all that *stuff* that I keep bottled up inside of me was so difficult, and I spent most of the appointment in tears. One thing I learned is that my waterproof mascara isn't all that waterproof. Another thing I learned is that grieving sucks. All this anger I feel? Part of grieving. Part of the path to wellness and acceptance.

I'm not ready to talk here about what I'm grieving. It's not a death but a huge loss. It's been overwhelming. And it's just so scary to talk about. I feel that if I start to write about it that I'll never stop, that my words will flow like tears across the page.

That's all. I have posted that I'm having a hard time and that's all I really want to say right now.

There isn't an emoticon offered that expresses grief and anger and hurt and being overwhelmed all at once, like a torrent of emotional lava engulfing me. So I'm just going to use "gloomy" which is the best I can find to describe both my mood and the weather today. 


Date: 2017-04-19 06:52 pm (UTC)
miss_s_b: (Default)
From: [personal profile] miss_s_b
I hope that your whelm stops going over soon.

Date: 2017-04-19 07:40 pm (UTC)
seraphina_snape: Stitch from Lio & Stitch with a red towel as a superhero cape and a blue&white bikini top over his ears, no text (Lilo&Stitch_ Batman!Stitch)
From: [personal profile] seraphina_snape
Are you okay with virtual hugs? If so, consider yourself hugged.

Date: 2017-04-19 08:49 pm (UTC)
kristy: Hugs (Hugs)
From: [personal profile] kristy

I'm going through something VERY similar right now.

I hope you recover, soon.

Date: 2017-04-19 11:18 pm (UTC)
kristy: Hugs (Hugs)
From: [personal profile] kristy
Thank you, kindly & thank you, for the hugs.

Date: 2017-04-19 08:58 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] michigangster
Therapy can be wonderfully cathartic at times - sucks at the time but I think it feels better after. I hope it continues to help you!

Date: 2017-04-19 09:59 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] fleeting
I hope things get better for you soon. :(

Date: 2017-04-20 02:44 am (UTC)
irish_dragon: by Magic Art from LJ (Feel Her Presence)
From: [personal profile] irish_dragon

Talking about the pain, can be like tearing off the scab on a wound that was healing, or re-breaking a bone that didn't quite heal right. It can hurt worse, because it has been cooking in a pressure cooker for years.

Even if you don't want to talk about it here, journal about it, write it till you can't write no more. Do it when you're ready. Then bring it with you when you go to your therapist. Sometimes it helps to have a record of how you feel, or felt during and after a session. Sometimes it helps if you are on a roll, to release some of the stuff you talked about with you Therapist, or at least release some of the pressure. Because as your outlook changes, you can see it in your writing. That in itself can be very healing.

I would encourage you to find a massage therapist or energy worker that can work with you as well. To help move some of that out of the body, especially if it has been cooking for a while.

Good Luck! Hug a cat, if they let you anyway.

Date: 2017-04-24 11:31 pm (UTC)
irish_dragon: by Bases by Maggie on LJ (Eat dessert First)
From: [personal profile] irish_dragon
a reiki practitioner is would be a type of energy healer.

There are several types of Energy workers. I try out psychic or alternative healing fairs to test out local healers. I find this is a very good venue to try out local healers, and find one you like spending time with. That you mesh or sync well with.

Date: 2017-04-25 06:01 am (UTC)
irish_dragon: by Roxicons on LJ (Shadow Bat)
From: [personal profile] irish_dragon
It can, but it usually depends on both parties, and whether or not the person who is coming for assistance, is willing to accept the assistance.

If you are a reader, you may also read The Emotional Code. Which goes into buried/trapped emotions and how to release them. It's by a chiropractor, I believe.

Date: 2017-04-27 07:31 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] irish_dragon
I had a little girl give me a very glittery funny bat for halloween one year. It's on my goal board for decoration. I put my random amusing gifts up to look at.

Like the pin that says "santa, I can explain..."

Date: 2017-04-20 06:41 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] this_ascension

Date: 2017-04-20 05:26 pm (UTC)
norfolkian: Holtzmann from Ghostbusters licking a gun (Default)
From: [personal profile] norfolkian
Well done on seeing a therapist - that's a really positive step.


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